When life hands you lemons...

...give life a paper cut and squeeze lemon juice on it!
So it's been a year since I updated this thing... which just proves that life gets in the way sometimes. It also shows what a busy and crazy year we've had! Jimmy and I are doing great, about to celebrate our first anniversary :) I love him so much, and I'm really luck to have him in my life!
There has been some stress for us this year, and I'm not going to get into the whole thing. Just picture the ex-wife, psycho-bitch from Hell and you've got a pretty good idea of what we've been though. I miss the boys everyday, and I know that Jimmy feels the same. I just hope that someday things will smooth out and I'll get to see them again.
my writing has been put on hold for a while. But not permanently! I'm determined to finish this story, even if it kills me! However, that pesky life thing again, I just don't always have the time or energy to spend on it. I'm working again, hooray for Wal-Mart! I actually don't mind this job, it's kinda fun and definitely easy... and it's extra money, which will really come in handy this Christmas!
We have a new edition to the family... and we lost one. Jimmy and I lost a baby in January. It was devastating, but we've moved on and we're trying again. Bright spot in things is we have an adorable dog, just 3 months old now. His name is Dexter and he's brilliantly mischievous! He's really a great dog and has brought a lot of smiles into the house!
There's really not much else to write about... Life moves on, with or without us... another Christmas is here, and soon another year will have passed. Here's to hoping that 2011 will be better than 2010!

Been a long time...

You know, a lot can happen when you don't post anything for six months... Not too long after my last post, I met Jimmy... and now I'm married to Jimmy! It's amazing how your life can completely turn 180 in such a short amount of time... He is truly the most amazing, sweetest, funniest man I've ever met, such a change of pace considering my first marriage and the total clusterfuck that it turned out to be. Things now are better than ever. I wish so much that I had met Jimmy years ago, it would have saved both of us a lot of heartache.

(oh and not only do i have a new husband, i have two stepsons. Skyler is 11 and Max is 6... they are adorable! The thought of being a stepmom kinda threw me at first, but the boys are really great, and I'm looking forward to getting to know them better and being a part of their lives.)

Life is a crazy bitch sometimes... just when you think it's time to give up, something great comes along and you find yourself surprisingly happy! I mean, who would have guessed that in a years time, i would have divorced the fucktard that I was with, suffered through some really disastrous dates, met some guy who lives on the opposite corner of the state, fallen in love, gotten married, and now we're getting ready to move into his house in south MO... things couldn't be better!

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Well, i've come to the conclusion that for the most part, men are douche bags. There are a few exceptions, such as D, but generally, they all can fuck off. I was really enjoying spending time with K, when we actually could make time to spend together... but that just blew up completely for some reason. So, in moving on, I've been spending a lot of time with B, only to have my texts avoided tonight, when we had plans. Then there's T, who's really sweet, but totally not for me... no spark, no chemistry. Which is too bad, because he's a nice guy.
LOL I guess I'm going to have to go through the entire alphabet before I find the right guy! well, it'll be an adventure...

life's full of surprises

Just when you think nothing can ever go right, or life's just out to fuck you over... something happens that changes your mind. It may not be a huge thing that changes the course of your future, but even the little things that make you smile... as long as it makes you stop and realize that life's not so bad.
We make plans and spend so much time focusing on what we think we want or what we think is supposed to happen... then when it doesn't work out they way we want, our life is over... Why do we do that to ourselves? I'm just as guilty of it, even lately. My plans that I thought I had all worked out, suddenly seem to be falling apart, and at first I was upset, hurt and disappointed. Then tonight... BAM! Something new just sort of fell into my lap (so to speak) and now, who knows what's ahead for me. But I have finally learned what it means to go with the flow. I'm not going to plan my life out ten years at a time, I'm not going to assume something then get disappointed when it doesn't happen. I'm just going to take life one day at a time and see where it takes me. Live life to the fullest, throw caution to the wind, and any other relevant cliche I can think of...
I bet the Goddess is looking down and me and laughing "I told you so..."

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I can't really think of anything interesting to put as a title, so make up your own...

Worked thoroughly sucked today... and that was just the meeting. I've still got to go back for 8 more hours! Ah well... it's money. Not enough, but it's money. At least there are a few people there who I get along with, which makes the job tolerable for now.

I'm starting to get a bigger following on my novel on DeviantArt. That makes me happy! I'm really working hard on this one, i want it to really go somewhere. If I'm able to get published, it would be a dream come true!

I'm at a very weird place in my life. One major disaster is about to end... I'm starting to get things back on track and my life pulled together. But I have no idea where I'm going to end up. I have one option that I like the sound of, but don't really know if it will go anywhere... I would like it to, but I have to be sure that it's not the same kind of situation that I just got out of. My other option is nice too... but it's kind of my second choice. Not that I couldn't have fun, I just had something else in mind. All i know at this point is that I want to be happy. And I don't know which option will make that happen.

Any suggestions?

Needing inspiration

I've been wanting to pick up my sketchbook again, but I'm lacking motivation. I know what I want to draw, but when I pick up the pencil, I just can't do it. So i have several projects that I'm working on at the moment, and nothing seems to be getting done.

I have, however, been doing laundry, during a Star Wars marathon, so that is productive I suppose. And I've gotten some cleaning done, so I don't really feel too lazy, just when it comes to art. I know that I need to work on my novel, as well, but there again, i've hit a brick wall. I know how the next chapter is going to go, but getting to there from where I stopped is the problem...

Oh well... I'm going back to Star Wars... a girl can never go wrong with a Jedi :)

Sarah Smile

yes, i'm listening to Hall and Oates... it's my song, ok? don't judge me!

i realized that I havent' posted anything in a while, and I didn't want to make a habit of it. So i'm posting. I'm not really sure what I'm posting about, nothing really comes to mind, but i wanted to write something so that it wasn't months between posts.

work is... work. nothing really has changed, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. i still don't get paid enough for the amount of stress this job dishes out, but i suppose that pretty typical. I do enjoy working with most of the people there, so that's a nice perk. I just wish the entire office was somewhere else... some where not so midwest. I'm definitely not a down home country girl, and the whole country lifestyle is starting to wear on my nerves. I felt more at home on the east coast, and i can't wait to get back there, hopefully next year.

my life at this point is the exciting routine of work, sleep, email, work, sleep, email... I don't really have a life outside of that, but for now that's ok. It gives me a chance to save money for moving eventually, and buying a car, which i desperately need. On the rare occasion that i do want to go somewhere, asking to borrow my parents car makes me feel like i'm in highschool again. no, actually, i had my own car in highschool, so it's even more of a step down. ah well, I guess i shouldn't complain, things could be worse.

i did manage to get out a few weeks ago and take in a fantastic concert. I saw Steel Panther live at the Voodoo Lounge in Kansas City. It was by far one of the best shows I've ever been to! If they make it back to KC before I move, i'm definitely going to be there, front row! Nothing beats being within crotch-grabbing distance of Michael Starr! LOL

Well, I can't think of anything else to write at the moment. My life isn't that exciting to have new news all the time, so my posts may start to get redundant... oh well... such is my life!