Sunday, June 14, 2009

life's full of surprises

Just when you think nothing can ever go right, or life's just out to fuck you over... something happens that changes your mind. It may not be a huge thing that changes the course of your future, but even the little things that make you smile... as long as it makes you stop and realize that life's not so bad.
We make plans and spend so much time focusing on what we think we want or what we think is supposed to happen... then when it doesn't work out they way we want, our life is over... Why do we do that to ourselves? I'm just as guilty of it, even lately. My plans that I thought I had all worked out, suddenly seem to be falling apart, and at first I was upset, hurt and disappointed. Then tonight... BAM! Something new just sort of fell into my lap (so to speak) and now, who knows what's ahead for me. But I have finally learned what it means to go with the flow. I'm not going to plan my life out ten years at a time, I'm not going to assume something then get disappointed when it doesn't happen. I'm just going to take life one day at a time and see where it takes me. Live life to the fullest, throw caution to the wind, and any other relevant cliche I can think of...
I bet the Goddess is looking down and me and laughing "I told you so..."

Thursday, June 11, 2009

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I can't really think of anything interesting to put as a title, so make up your own...

Worked thoroughly sucked today... and that was just the meeting. I've still got to go back for 8 more hours! Ah well... it's money. Not enough, but it's money. At least there are a few people there who I get along with, which makes the job tolerable for now.

I'm starting to get a bigger following on my novel on DeviantArt. That makes me happy! I'm really working hard on this one, i want it to really go somewhere. If I'm able to get published, it would be a dream come true!

I'm at a very weird place in my life. One major disaster is about to end... I'm starting to get things back on track and my life pulled together. But I have no idea where I'm going to end up. I have one option that I like the sound of, but don't really know if it will go anywhere... I would like it to, but I have to be sure that it's not the same kind of situation that I just got out of. My other option is nice too... but it's kind of my second choice. Not that I couldn't have fun, I just had something else in mind. All i know at this point is that I want to be happy. And I don't know which option will make that happen.

Any suggestions?